Nov. 14th, 2001

Kitties!!

Nov. 14th, 2001 01:14 am
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*sigh* I still want the Faolan and Nyaka kitties...

I want an apartment I can have them.

I want to not have to bother with school anymore.

I need something....

Don't think I'm impatient
Because I'm willing to wait
But something must happen
Before it gets too late
It could be my imagination
But wasn't there more than this numb sensation


My soul is screaming to move on to the next stage but strings of society and conflicting expectations hold me in place...


...But I just stand still....


I think... if it wasn't for her, I would have already fled....
And everything in the world just adds to the urge to follow my bliss before the trail goes cold.


Set me free
Remotivate me
Give me a reason
To scream and shout
Give me something
To get excited about


Threads spun by myself and others, holding me in place...
Is it just an illusion, or do I hold the knife which to slice them by?

So restless... is it Marlboro-itus again or just the urge to find something new in the endless rutine that you get dragged into?

I want the kitties... I want a place where I can have them.

Maybe it's mothering instinct... Juchan said I was nesting at one point...

I just want to get out of this stucture and spread my wings....

Move out and get a job in retail or something.... something small that pays decent where I don't have to be in a positon where I have to think and know things I don't. Where I don't have too much responsibility and don't have to deal with words or numbers...

Working produce... I liked that... We all stood around cleaning and bagging fruits and veggies and taking and hanging out. The people were nice, the work was easy and... kinda relaxing. Maybe I'll look into green house work or something.

I need to clear my head but I don't know how....


Set me free


I should graduate... but I just couldn't care less at this point...
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I need something new...

I need inspiration...

My soul it itching under my skin to get out and feed but there's nothing new to do so upon...


Buffy used a Star Treck plot... and I'm so tired of the repetition of the soundtrack to the musical and the episodes being played all the time... I mean... I recgonized the eps Tirtzah was watching, the first by 6 words, then by the BACKGROUND MUSIC.

No wonder my brain is mush...

Thought I am getting ideas for writing things, like Jengame2. Jengame1 is stuck again. (Which is the main reason WHY I made 2...) I just can;t follow the fixed plot


I AM THE SHADOW!


Mmm.... CD....


I am the evening come....


Let me blast out my ears with the sound.... Maybe I can leach out more...

Let he intensity fill the holes in my imagaination...


I want to kill Shin... I want to stab him multiple times.... I want him to SHUT UP and fade into the background...

Because he doesn't want to change.

But I'm tired of letting him chose his path. I will twist him... Because as is, he should be dead.

(I feel like Ko right now... *scowls*)

He nearly took over the last chapter... I don't want him to be the main character anymore..

Why do people not know how to give feedback?!

"Evil Vampire lady"

Statements that aren;t even sentances.

I'm a writer... I LIVE off feedback... It's why I liked Tirtzah's edit sheets so much. Nitpicts and coments and bad jokes and WTFs and HELPFUL FEEDBACK!

Xella gave half decent some, which was nice.

The page has had over 1000 hits.

Doesn't mean much if noone talks.
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I need Bakami to be fixed.

There are two things that sustaine my mental well being on my computer and one of those is my MP3s and the other is the Inet.

If they don't work together it's like a constant twitch...

I need music to think. If there's none externaly, the internal jutebox starts up.

And if I get any more Buffy music in there I WILL start twitching....

Maybe I should start just listening... The characters in my head become more ative on that playground.

I need a flat chest. I need not to have painful breasts. I need NOT to be a goddamned double D.

I need to get out....

I need to get out.

I need change...

Why can't I have a body that isn't so fucked up?

Mom's all 'Lose weight!'

Right. One the campus food plan and with a brusted thryroid gland.

That's really gonna work.

And then what? I'll look like you?

Skinny bony pot-bellied, bean-eating, food-obessing...

Can't I just devorce her? Purge her genetics from my body and be heathier?

I blame you, mother...

The thryroid problem. The weight problem. The family trend to be small and stocky. The family treand for diabeties.

It;s the fault of your genetics that my body is so fucked up.

It's the fault of your genetics that I have to take pills for the rest of my life.

And how dare you go on how you have it worse with alll your pills! I'm ~21~ GODDAMN IT! I'm supose to be heathly! I'm not supose to have these problems and have to worry about everything! I shouldn't have had to be tortured by being alergic to so many foods when I wasn't even out of elementary school. I shouldn't have to been on medication since before I got to college.

I hate you. I hate everything you've done to me, to Richie...

And what you continue to do to dad.

Bitch.

Manipulative, hypactitical, self-serving bitch.

I hold so much contempt for you...

Get it into your hollow head that I am not you... I will never BE you, and I would rather DIE then become what you are now.

Do you think you're happy? Living in your world of work work work and romance novels?

Dad has more friends then you. Dad hangs out with his friends more then you.

Money's tight, but you have to have your treadmil, because god forbid you go out and walk in the cold in winter. No, instead you subject the house to the noise and jaring of that contraption as you run...

Do you think you look good now? Your skin hangs on your bones. I can feel your shoulder blades when I hug you. But your belly's the same size as it was.

You look like you're dying.

Have you even told Richie you're diabetic yet?

Blind you are, mother... prazing the school system you placed us in. As I sit in classes and realize I have no idea what is being talked about because it was never covered in high school. Books I never read, consepts that were ever taught. Words I don't know.

I feel so stupid at times. I have people thinking English is my second language because I'm so bad at it. I don't know words that Judy uses. I have to look things up all the time when I read things she writes because I don't know the words. I feel stupid, mother. And you don't help that any.

You never did.
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Normaly I'd be writing this in a text file somwhere, but this works well too.

I wonder if I'm going to pass any of my classes this semester. This apathy overwhelms, and where it doesn't, inadaquecy and the inablilty to understand or even figure out what I'm supose to do fill that slot.

I don't think I've learned anything in school. Ever.

All it's done is take what intelegence I had and put it in a box.

I think... when I have a child, I'll send him/her to a school like Zanna's. BEcause there it seems like there's a chance. No grades to bind... no tests to be taught by.

Testing.... ruins.

I can get 80s on tests. It doesn't mean I know anything.

I don't have the attention span to read texts. I can barely get my eyes to follow textbooks or photocopies there of....


I wish I could write on my own... I don;t know when I stopped being able to.

Maybe I'll go rewrite Sphere. Maybe I'll go looking through my archives and find something salvagable. Do something with Mirror maybe. Find something I once wrote and make it worth reading...

I hate feeling stupid... but I do so often...


Bleak desolation in a beam of Sun
Scraping as I crawl (Your Heart can't hear me)
Tearing bruising fall (Your hands can't hear me)
Thirsting raging blind (Your eyes can't hear me)
Racing against time (Your arms can't hear me)
Like and Angel You'll come, in a Dream, Precious one
(And) make me beautifully numb
Desperate panicked calls (The wind can't hear me)
Muffled weak and small (The sand can't hear me)
Pleading groping hands (The truth can't hear me)
Bleeding in the sand (Your Heart can't hear me)
Bleak desolation in a beam of Sun
Like and Angel You'll come, in a Dream, Blessed one
(And) make me joyfully numb
Razor fingers cling (The wind can't hear me)
Piercing demons sing (The sand can't hear me)
Twisting hollow Hell (The truth can't hear me)
Burning blisters swell (Your Heart can't hear me)
Sharp cut aching breath (Your arms can't hear me)
Choking scent of death (Your hands can't hear me)
Gruelling jaw-bone grind (Your eyes can't hear me)
Cursed by my own mind (Your Heart cant hear me)
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Bleak desolation in a beam of sun

"Sweet Lady Death... will I see your pale frame from this one who dances the light closer to heaven then hell...."

Angel you'll come... in a Dream, precious one... and make me beautifully numb...

Blocking out it all... dancing to the rhythems in my mind...


Twisting hollow Hell... (The truth can't hear me)


This place is no longer where I should be.... it's like the soil has gone sour beneith my feet as I waited for the grass to rise....


Cursed by my own mind (Your Heart cant hear me)





Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace
Heaven hold a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides





In this white wave I am sinking in this silence
In the white wave in this silence I believe
I can't help this longing
Comfort me
I can't hold it all in
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Correction:

I just dislike Damocles Shin.

Chosen Shin is fine. Clow Shin too.

But in Damocles... he's starting to urk me.

angst boy...
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Do tell me if any of this is any good...

"You're writing backwards," Valorie commented, looking over his shoulder.
Amos paused, looking at the paper. Giving a sigh, he picked up a fresh paper and started over. "I do that a lot," he commented, as he began re-writing, this time in the proper direction. "I have a mild form of dislexia, if I'm not paying attention, I read and write backwards. It's amplified by the fact I'm left handed."
"It's like you're in a mirror," Valorie said in a soft voice.
Amos paused, turning to face her. "What did you say?"
"I--I--" Valorie stammed. Amos's face was strange, his eyes stareing deeply into hers. She swallowed. "I said it's like you're in a mirror," she repeated, shrinking back.
He turned away, looking out of the window, his fist clentched.
"I-- I'm sorry-- I didn't mean--" she began.
"No," he said softly. "It's okay." He turned back to face her. Shakeing his head, he sighed. "We are mirrors of each other, arn't we?" He took a step towards her. "We're the same hight, same build, our hair is even the same length, everything else is opposite." He continued slowly walking. "Where your hair is a dark black, mine is a pale grey, your eyes a deep green, mine are barely blue." He stopped, inches in front of her. "Your right hand, my left," he wispered, lifting his hand as if placing it on a pane of glass.
Valorie lifted her hand in the same mannor, their fingers-tips lightly touching.
"I've always felt like a relection," Amos said softly, "like I wasn't a compleate person. I've only known you a few days, yet I feel like you have always been with me."
"We're reflections of each other," Valorie smiled. "Neither one of us is the true person, neither one of us is the shadow." She closed her fingers over his hand. Leaning over, she kissed him gently.
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Again, opinions are good


Kaiyn ushered out her last customer, then gave a large sigh of relief. Some times she wondered if she might be better off without her magic talent. Many people came to see her, or to beg a spell from 'the most powerful young magic user in the land'. When she was three, she had shocked her mother by levitating a cookie from the high shelf into her hand. Soon afterwards, she was the sensation the land over. Her mother didn't mind, every visitor to the house would leave a gift or sorts, and it helped her family out greatly. She was apprenticed at the age of 7 to a master magician, but found out that her talent wasn't conventional magic, and couldn't teach her. This only heightened her popularity. Her father died when she was nine, and her mother passed one when Kaiyn was seventeen. Kaiyn decided to move away and set up her practice when no one had heard of her, but word spread fast. Soon she was getting hundreds of visitors and customers. She tried moving again, but the crowd always found her. She finally gave in, and set up shop in a small town at the edge of the land. The towns people didn't mind, they were grateful. Now the inns were always filled by people seeking Kaiyn's advice, or spells, the herb shops had good business, and the town prospered.
It had been a year since her mother's death, and Kaiyn was starting to become worried. Her talent, unpredictable as always, had been 'leading' her to situations. A month ago, she had felt magical vibrations in an abandoned building that was to be knocked down to make a new one. Upon checking it out, she had found a child, thought to have been a runaway, locked inside one of the rooms. Upon investigation, the girl stated that her father had locked her there, and had been abusing her. The town had awarded Kaiyn a metal of honor for rescuing the girl, and the girls mother had given Kaiyn a charm that had been in her family for generations, but Kaiyn had been worried. There was nothing magical about the situation, and when she reexamined the building, she felt nothing.
A knock on the door rousted Kaiyn from her brooding. She was thinking on ignoring it, but her talent sent her a feeling of urgency, indicating she definitely should answer the door.
Giving a sigh of exasperation, she hauled herself from her chair and answered the door. A tall, dark haired man stood there, eyes looking straight ahead. "Yes?" Kaiyn asked.
"Minderfall bids you to come." The man stated, flatly.
Kaiyn gave a mental sigh. Great, just what she needed. If it hadn't have been for her talents urging, she would have shut the door and gone to bed. "Who is Minderfall?" She asked.
"Minderfall bids to you come." he repeated, almost in a monotone.
My, isn't he bright, she thought, sarcastically. "I'm sorry, could you come back tomorrow? It's been a long day." She told him.
"Minderfall bids you to come."
"Yes, I heard you the first time, but I'm not going anywhere at this moment. Please leave." She stated firmly. Why on earth did her talent want her to talk to this man!
"Minderfall bids you to come." He repeated once more, then with a swift motion, flung a power into her face.
Kaiyn instinctively shot out the counter-spell, but found that instead of blocking the spell, it was enhancing it! Her last thought before passing out was the her talent had betrayed her.

She came to, her head pounding. She reflexively cast a small healing spell to quell her dizziness, the looked at her surroundings. The room was small, with a dirt floor. Mistake number one, Kaiyn smiled, then touching her hand to the floor tapped into the powers of the earth. Her smile widened, as she harnessed the power and began constructing a telaportation spell to take her back home. She invoked it, then waited. Nothing. She tried making the door dissolve. Nothing. No spell the would release her from the room would work. On a hunch, she congered a small stone. It materialized into the air, and fell to the floor with a plink. It was as she had thought, her talent wanted her to be here, and until it changed it's mind, she was stuck.
Giving a sigh, she got up, and banged on the door. "Any one out there!" She called.
"Yes." Came the monotone reply. "Are you awake?"
'Am I awake?' Kaiyn mentally repeated in amazement. "Yes I'm awake!" She retorted.
"Then I must get Minderfall." Came the reply. Footsteps began, then trailed down the hall.
Well that went well, Kaiyn mused. Now that she thought of it, she could have used her magic to force the guard to open the door, but knowing her magic, it probably wouldn't have let her do that anyway. Soon the footsteps returned, accompanied by a heavier tread of feet. The door opened, and a plump older woman entered the room, closing the door behind her. Clearing her throat, she began to speak.
"I am Minderfall. I have brought you here to offer an invitation to join me in my quest for world dominance." She proclaimed, haughtily.
Oh-boy. Kaiyn thought. "Why?" She replied.
The woman appeared taken back. "Why? What do you mean, 'Why?'" She looked at Kaiyn as if she had grown a third arm.
"I mean exactly what I said. Why? Why conquer the world? What would we do with it?" Kaiyn replied.
"For the glory of it! For the power!" Minderfall proclaimed.
Because it's there, Kaiyn mentally added. "And why would I want the glory or power? I have enough power as it is!"
"But I don't!" Minderfall exclaimed. "With your power and magic, I could rule the world!"
"But you have magic," Kaiyn stated, it oozed all over the woman, like a slimy green goo. Clearly not a magic used for good!
"But it is not enough! I require a greater power to assist me!"
"No." Kaiyn stated, flatly.
The woman was again taken back. "No?" She repeated, unbelievingly.
"No. I don't want to rule the world, I don't want fame or glory, and as for power, I have more then I'll ever need!" Kaiyn explained.
The woman's face twisted into an expression of disgust. "So." She stated. "We shall see if you will change your mind." She whirled, then rapped on the door three time. "Open!" She shouted. The door was pulled open, and Minderfall stomped out.
Again Kaiyn attempted to teleport back home. Nothing. She was still being held back. Giving a sigh, she sat down and waited.
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Again, coments are valued.

Kerry lifted the head piece of her V-suit out of the box and smiled. Finally, the ultimate 3D virtual-reality set up, the latest and greatest model there was, and it was hers, it was all hers. She admired the helmet, turning it around in her hands. She was already wearing the main part of the V-Suit, a black stretch outfit with wires and electrodes inside of it that not only would trick her nerves into believing that she was really touching the objects in the V-World, but control the impulses to her muscles, fooling them into thinking that she was running or climbing, when she was just sitting calmly. No cumbersome walking circle to say on, and no large motor to add money to her already rediculously high electric bill. Kerry smiled blissfully once more. All those months of pinching pennies had paid off.
She checked to make sure the game cartage she was going to use was inserted in the back of the headpiece. It was. Nothing left to do now but put it on and activate it. Kerry's smile renewed as she savored the moment. Finally, with a deliberate slowness, she placed the helmet on her head and connected it to the rest of the suit. The suit gave a slight hum as it did a self-diagnostic.
"All systems Go." a pleasant female voice reported. "Please lower the face plate."
Kerry sat herself down, and hesitated slightly. The faceplate was the one part of the V-suit that didn't quite thrill her. It was an instrumental part in the V-world experience, doing for your face what the suit did for the rest of your body. It regulated the air temperature on your face to match the temperature that the rest of your body was fooled into feeling, and contained the voice-recognition apparatus that allowed the game to know what you were speaking. But Kerry wasn't completely comfortable with it, although it was much better then the model that required you to wear a mask and hood with the electrodes. It was watching it fall that bothered her, it cut off your final link to the real world. 'But isn't that the point?' Kerry chided herself for being foolish. She reached up and pulled the plate down. It gave a slight hiss as it locked into place. The visual circuits activated and a completely blue room appeared before Kerry, 'More of a box then a room' Kerry thought. This was the operating system of the V-Suit. You could personalize it if you wanted to, but Kerry didn't feel the need. 'It's not like I'm going to be spending much time here.' she reasoned.
A soft chime rang through the air, and an attractive female materialized in the room before Kerry. "Greetings." The apparition smiled. "My name is Nina. And you are?"
"Kerry" Kerry stated.
The female nodded . "Would you prefer a male or a female companion?"
"Male" Kerry responded, smiling. The woman disappeared and a tall, tanned man, well built, and, Kerry noticed, well hung, with golden hair appeared in her place.
"Hello, Kerry," He said, in a deep voice as he smiled at her. Kerry felt herself smiling back. "I am Hank," he continued, "your guide for V-suit. I see you have chosen 'Dragon's Den' as your first game selection. Do you need instructions for this game?" he asked, smiling at her once more.
"Sure, why not." Kerry smiled back. She really didn't, she had played it on her friends suit, but Hank was much better looking then Anna's Ryan had been. She listened to Hanks instructions, not realy hearing the words, and wondered if there was some way to import him into on of the sex games she had gotten for the suit.
"Ready Kerry?" he asked when he finished.
Kerry nodded, stretching her arms. "Ready, Hank,"
"Good luck then!" He smiled, then took her hand and kissed it.
So these are the "added" features that the catalog boasted about, Kerry mused as the blue room faded.
"Welcome to the Dragon's Den!" The narrators voice began, and Kerry stopped thinking about Hank as the game began.

"Congratulations, You have slain the dragon!" The narrators voice boomed. "The towns folk are very grateful to you."
Kerry nodded, leaning on the wall of the cave, quite exhausted. That was on intense game! "Menu." She commanded, rolling her shoulders.
A small box appeared in front of her. Kerry lifted the cover and pressed the quit button. The dragon's cave dissolved and she found herself back in the blue room.
"How was it?" Hank asked, appearing from nowhere.
"It was great," she replied, smiling tiredly. "A bit exhausting though." she stretched, pulling her arms behind her head, "My back is killing me though. That was one heavy sword!" she commented.
"Would you like a back rub to help with that?" Hank asked, gesturing to a comfortable looking wooden chair.
Kerry paused, Extra features indeed! "Sure," she replied, smiling "Why not."
Hank grinned like a love-struck teenager, his hazel eyes sparking as Kerry sat down. He began rubbing her shoulders. 'Wow,' Kerry thought. Hanks hands were strong, yet soft, and Kerry felt like melting as his fingers massaged her tired muscles.
"So Kerry," Hank began, after a few moments had past. "What's a nice girl like you doing in a game like this?" her quipped. Kerry could hear the smile in his voice and she laughed.
Soon she found herself telling Hank her life story, about her job, her friends, her old boyfriends, everything.
"You mean you're not married already?" Hank replied, as he massaged her lower back. "I though such a nice and beautiful girl as you would have men falling over your feet!"
Kerry laughed. "No, Hank. Unfortunately the world doesn't work that way." She sighed. "Nice guys, and girls, always finish last. There's more jerks out there then anyone else."
Hank got to his feet. "There, feel better?" He asked.
Kerry stretched and stood up. "Very much better." She smiled. "You do a great massage." She sighed. "I should get going though," she commented.
The wounded puppy-dog look in Hanks eyes made Kerry feel like she was betraying him. 'He's a program,' she reminded herself. 'A computer-generated image, a spot on a microchip. He doesn't have feelings.'
"'Till next time then," Hank replied, sadly. and then was gone.

The faceplate lifted with a mechanical hiss, as Kerry returned to reality. That was definitely more realistic then Anna's model, she mused, removing the helmet and standing up. She stretched and looked at her watch, wondering how long she had been under. "That can't be right," she commented, puzzled, but the watches glowing numbers clearly stated it was 6:22. "Impossible!" Kerry sat back down. It had been only 5:43 when she had plugged in, and she had been under for at ~least~ two hours, she was sure of it! Another 'Added feature?' she wondered, as she disconnected and pulled off the V-Gloves. She smiled. This was better then she had thought! She unzipped the suit and stepped out of it, reaching for her shirt. Wait 'till she told Anna, she smiled as she buttoned up the shirt.
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Gaaah....

Reading the old stuff... makes me cringe. There's good consepts and all but the follow through... Gaaaaaaah.
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Lynn held her sword up to the light, a polishing cloth in her right hand. Then, giving a sigh, she put down the cloth and returned the weapon to its sheath. She had polished it so many times in the past year she was surprised it hadn't turned into a dagger. For all the use it had gotten, it would not really have mattered, she though bitterly. Seven years of training and the only thing she had used the sword for since getting her swords-master title had been coaching the neighbors youngest boy. It had been enjoyable until the boy decided he needed a "real" teacher, not a woman. Despite her mentors promises, no one hired female swordsmen. Sighing once more, she replaced the sword on its rest on the wall. It looked like her job in the market was going to be more permanent then she had hoped.
She plopped down in her chair, giving a deep sigh. Maybe it wasn't too late to become a priestess of the Goddess. She still fit the requirements-- unsoiled female, willing to give her life in service--
Lynn's hand instinctivly went to her dagger as her thoughs were interupped by her door slamming open.
"Hey, Lynn!" A familiar voice called.
"Hello, Jarama." Lynn sighed, sliding her dagger back into its sheath as her friend walked into the room.
"Do you remember two sun cycles ago when I told you about The Great Sphere?" Jarama asked, plopping down into a chair.
"The spellstone that---"
"I sent out a spell to find it," Jarama interrupted, beaming.
"I thought you said it was only a myth?" Lynn responded, curious.
"That's what I thought at first," Jarama began, warming up to the subject. "I was reading a history on Jirineaplast, where over half of the great sorcerers lived, and read about a rivalry between the sorceresses Dilia and Phoebe. Whenever Dilia made an effort to acquire an object of power, Phoebe always got there first, or made a higher bid for it. The one time Dilia managed to acquire a spell stone of great power, without any interference, she disappeared mysteriously, along with the spellstone. Because the stone was an odd shape, it was perfectly round, people started referring to it as the Sphere, and because it had caused the downfall of a Great Sorceress, it was considered one of the most powerful objects in the world."
"But there have been many quests to locate it, and no one has found even a trace of it," Lynn stated.
"Yes," Jarama grinned, pointing her finger at the older woman. "But none of the quests had anyone with magic! It seems that no one with magic ever desired to find it, therefore none ever sent out a location spell for it."
And there are most likely very good reasons for that. Lynn sighed internally. "You said two cycles ago that the Elders Magic Council advised you---"
Jarama made a face. "Bah. What do they know! They're just afraid that someone will be more powerful then they are." She grinned. "Won't they be surprised when I bring it back with me!"
A curious mixture of dread and excitement began filtering into Lynn's emotions. "Bring it back with you?" She repeated.
"Weren't you paying attention to me?" The younger woman frowned. "I told you, I sent out a location spell for it, so now I know where it is."
Lynn blinked.
"It's not too far from here either! Mind you, it's not in my back yard, but I figure it'll take less then a moon cycle, round trip."
Lynn blinked again. "Jarama, have you lost your sense?" The older girl exclaimed. "Are you truly planning on trying to retrieve this object?"
The young sorceress looked at the swordswoman as if she were a simpleton. "I wouldn't have gone looking for it if I didn't plan on retrieving it."
"But the most powerful spell stone!"
"I can handle it; you know how all those old myths get exaggerated." Jarama stated, leaning back into her chair in a nonchalant manner.
Goddess. Lynn sighed internally. "You said The Sphere was attributed to Dilia's downfall,"
"Speculation, mere speculation." Jarama scowled. There was a small pause before Jarama's face animated again. "And besides, I learned that The Sphere was sealed and spelled so it can only give energy to it's holder." She smiled.
'You know how all those old myths get exaggerated.' Lynn sighed.
"It makes sense that they would have hid it in the other side of the East Desert." Jarama added.
"The other side of The East Desert?" Lynn repeated, shocked.
Jarama shrugged. "It's not like I'm going to be going alone,"
"What?" Lynn had a sinking suspicion she knew what Jarama was going to say next.
"You're coming too, aren't you?" Jarama replied, looking at Lynn as if she had just invited her to go to the market. "You've been telling me for cycles that you've been yearning for an adventure, now I'm offering you a chance at one."
Lynn's knees felt weak. "Yes, but---"
"I have to go get supplies ready," Jarama explained as she got to her feet, cutting off Lynn's protest. "We'll leave tomorrow morning! Be ready!" She called as she left the small house.
The young swordswoman sat a moment, staring off in the direction her headstrong friend had gone and sighed. What had she just gotten herself into?

Jarama whistled happily as she headed towards the market, mentally listing all the supplies she would need. She would have to pick up that new spell book from the Mage's Library, get a new herb pouch and see if she could get a pack of Kisakami; almost all the higher spells needed some Kisakami and she had almost run out, and then she could down a few mugs at the Drunken Druid.
Reaching the market she wasted no time, pushing her way past the line at the herb tent and snatching up the last two pouches of Kisakami in the shop, not hearing the protests of those she had stepped in front of. Picking out some other packets of herbs and pocketing a few while the shop owner was occupied. Paying for a fourth of the herbs and supplies she picked up, Jarama strode over to the Library. "Get me a copy of The Independent Mages, Spells of The Higher Level".
"Sorry, Jarama," the woman behind the counter said, "You have to show me proof that you have passed the Council Of Elders test for Level 7 before I can sell you this."
"WHAT?!" Jarama exploded.
"Do I have to spell it out for you? You have to show proof that you have undergone official magical training and passed the Level 7 test, and I know you haven't!"
Jarama's face reddened. "Are you trying to tell me that in order to get a SIMPLE SPELL BOOK, I have to had spent SEVEN years of my life listening to MYTHS AND FAIRY TALES and being TOLD what I can and CANNOT DO?!"
"Yes."
"THIS IS SHIT!" Jarama fumed. "I don't NEED to go to an academy! I'm self taught! And I'll tell you this," she exclaimed, pointing a finger at the woman in front of her. "I'm a better sorceress then the whole bunch of them!"
"I severally doubt that. Now get out of my store," the woman replied, stone faced.
Jarama angrily stopped out of the store, muttering under her breath. Once she got the Sphere, that woman would be so sorry. She wouldn't NEED crappy spell books---

Lynn tossed in her sleep, her worried mind filling her head with disturbing dreams.
"I TOLD you, it's harmless! Watch, I'll prove it." Jarama stepped up to the pedestal and picked up the glowing orb it displayed. "See Lynn? Harmless." She paused as the glow from the orb began creeping up her arms.
"Jarama! Drop it! It is dangerous!"
"Stop worrying!" The glow was growing fast, covering Jarama's arms and chest and snaking down her body. She looked up as the glow crept up to her head. "It tickles." she grinned as the glow devoured her.
The orb fell onto the floor as the glow vanished, taking Jarama with it.
"Lynn..." Jarama's voice called from the orb. "Lynn!"
"Lynn--LYNN!"
Lynn awoke with a start.
"Damn it, Lynn, you sleep like a rock!"
Lynn whirled to see Jarama at the window with a disgusted look on her face.
"Jarama! What are you doing!" Lynn exclaimed.
"You didn't answer the door." Jarama stated in a matter-of-fact tone of voice.
"It's still dark out!"
Jarama shrugged. "I wanted to start out early."
"How long is it 'till sunrise?"
"A couple more hours."
Lynn groaned. "We are not traveling in the dark, Jarama. We will not be able to see our way."
"Oh," Jarama blinked. "Right."
Lynn sighed as Jarama vanished from the window. Snuggling under her covers she prayed to the Goddess that she and Jarama would survive Jarama's "quest".

"Hurry up!" Jarama exclaimed, her horse nerviously moving around. "We should have left already," she scowled.
Lynn faught back a yawn. "The sun's light is barely visable, Jarama, it is not light enough to see the road."
The younger woman scowled. "I can see it," she said defiantly.
Lynn sighed internaly. "Did you bring a tent?" she asked, carefuly loading suplies onto her horse.
"A tent? What for?"
"I do not think that there are any inns in the East Desert. We will need a place to sleep," the swordswoman stated, adjusting the sadle.
"Oh. You'll have to buy one for us then," Jarama said in a matter-of-fact tone. "Now come on already, get on your horse and let's go!"
Lynn paused. 'Do not stand for this,' she told herself. 'You can tell her you just remembed you cannot go. Tell her you have to go take care of the shop because Meral is leaving and you are the only one working she can trust. Tell her something, anything, stick up for yourself!'
"Well?" Jarama asked, expectantly.
Lynn sighed as she mounted her horse. She had the extra money with her, she could afford to buy the tent. Maybe she could convince Jarama to let her keep it when they were done, and she could use it again sometime.
"Let's go!"

--

And you can tell this was a more resently eddedthing 'cause it doesn't suck as much... though I'm kida blinking cause I remembered it diffrent.. Ah well.
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"Hello Jarama." The other girl said, in Jarama's exact voice.
Jarama blinked, then her face hardened. "Who are you and why do you mock my form!"
"Stupid question," the other Jarama replied in the condescending tone Jarama always reprimanded Lynn with. "Haven't you looked in a mirror enough to recognize your own self? I'm you, stupid."
"No you're not." Jarama replied harshly. "You're obviously a magical construct designed to guard The Sphere!"
The other girl shrugged. "And what if I am?"
Jarama paused. "Then I'll destroy you."
Jarama's own laughter filled her ears. "You can't destroy me any more then you can destroy your shadow! You can't kill me with out killing yourself."
"You're only an image of me. I CAN destroy you!"
"Fine, break the mirror when you don't like what you see." The girl smirked. "But I'll still be here. You can never lose yourself no matter how hard you try."
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Diane scowled, staring up at the ceiling of the tent. They should have found the blasted village by now, but it felt like they had been going in circles. Jarama had not said a word since that morning, which was fine with Diane. It was also interesting to note that Jarama had not used the ointment, but instead had been casting small healing spells the entire day. The magic user had been exhausted by nightfall, and had fallen asleep instantaneously, clutching her no-longer-broken wrist protectively as she slept.
The older woman rose to her feet and exited the tent. The previous nights she had placed herself in a light trance, phasing out her awareness until the morning, but she couldn't do so this night. She felt irritated and anxious. She wanted to be out searching for Lynn, but she didn't dare leave Jarama behind. It also irked Diane that Jarama was able to dream and escape from her current situation, but she could not.
She cracked her knuckles, and stretched her leg muscles. It was a rather useless activity, being all she had to do was reform them to get them in better shape, but it had become almost a ritual. Gracefully she leaned back on her left leg, her hands posed in front of her as her eyes narrowed. Then swiftly she began her battle with her imaginary opponent, skillfully punching, kicking and dodging, at a fantastic speed, her hands a blur of motion. She suddenly jumped into the air, flipping perfectly to land a swift kick to her non existent opponents back.
Swiftly she began again, her eyes becoming harder and her maneuvers faster. In her minds eye she saw Jarama before her, full of hate. Soon she was gone, down on the ground in a motionless heap. Next it was the man who she was sure had kidnapped Lynn. Then he was replaced by one of the men they had met on the road.
Again and again she ran through the drills, perfectly executing her maneuvers. Over two hundred season cycles of looking for this Sphere, and the girl who will most likely receive it's power is a complete bitch. She spun around, kicking another invisible enemy. Two hundred season cycles. She thought again, her speed increasing once more. Briefly she thought of waking Jarama and forcing her into telling her The Sphere's location. And become an honourless cur as she is? She whirled again, shoving her wrist into the imaginary enemy in front of her with impressive force. She couldn't leave Lynn with Jarama, and she knew Lynn would not abandon her friend, so she was stuck on this path.
Suddenly, she paused, her body still poised for fighting. There was a taint of magic to the air. Her eyes narrowed as she analyzed it. A spell of confusion She frowned. No wonder they had not been able to find the camp! Closing her eyes she concentrated, mentally reaching out to the spell. Grabbing hold of it, she gave a yell of power and snapped it in two.
She opened her eyes, a smirk upon her face. I would like to see that little magic user do THAT! She grinned, punching the air in front of her into oblivion.
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"You don't learn, do you?" It asked, looking down at Jarama. "You think I set these warnings up for my heath? Do you even know what you're trying to obtain?"
The illusion paused. "Answer me, girl!" It thundered.
"You're just an illusion, why should I talk to you?" Jarama retorted.
"Because this is an interactive illusion, and like it or not, your going to talk with it!"

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