Kitties!!

[frannyan]

*sigh* I still want the Faolan and Nyaka kitties...

I want an apartment I can have them.

I want to not have to bother with school anymore.

I need something....

Don't think I'm impatient
Because I'm willing to wait
But something must happen
Before it gets too late
It could be my imagination
But wasn't there more than this numb sensation


My soul is screaming to move on to the next stage but strings of society and conflicting expectations hold me in place...


...But I just stand still....


I think... if it wasn't for her, I would have already fled....
And everything in the world just adds to the urge to follow my bliss before the trail goes cold.


Set me free
Remotivate me
Give me a reason
To scream and shout
Give me something
To get excited about


Threads spun by myself and others, holding me in place...
Is it just an illusion, or do I hold the knife which to slice them by?

So restless... is it Marlboro-itus again or just the urge to find something new in the endless rutine that you get dragged into?

I want the kitties... I want a place where I can have them.

Maybe it's mothering instinct... Juchan said I was nesting at one point...

I just want to get out of this stucture and spread my wings....

Move out and get a job in retail or something.... something small that pays decent where I don't have to be in a positon where I have to think and know things I don't. Where I don't have too much responsibility and don't have to deal with words or numbers...

Working produce... I liked that... We all stood around cleaning and bagging fruits and veggies and taking and hanging out. The people were nice, the work was easy and... kinda relaxing. Maybe I'll look into green house work or something.

I need to clear my head but I don't know how....


Set me free


I should graduate... but I just couldn't care less at this point...