stuff...

Mm... I just love this song... haven't heard it in a while too... I really should listen to all my cd's at sometime...

"I dream your with me, you hold me sweetly and rock me gently to sleep.... in your arms..." <-- I'm just seeing Ariel holding Shin when he's alseep... Awww... the cute..... :)

As my brain wanders to a Damocles character singing/lipsinking/being dramatic to 'Incubus' by Recoil. And no, I won't say who, cause it's a spoiler. ;) But Aralu is shaking her head sadly while smileing..... :) *cackles*

Uh! Die Diamanda Galas!! Or at least get off this cd! Unh! Viince! Andy! What were you thinking! She's OFF KEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYY!!!!

"A Long Goodbye"

In these days of mine for keeps I'm trying to hold on
When suddenly you're all out of reach and everything goes wrong
What we say and what we do are entirely different things
Meaningless straight through the roof it's not how it should be
Easy like a bird I ride the breeze my mind is falling

You're so ordinary, you're my sanctuary in the morning darling
New sensation, love vibration, heart to heart and a long goodbye
You go your way, I'll go my way, life is truer than fiction in this crazy
Land of milk & honey life is just an illusion

I just don't know what to believe in, if the truth be known
Suffering from soul fatigue, weathering the storm
What we say and what we do are entirely different things
The whisperings dissolve the room well it's not how it should be
Swaying like a tree I feel the sky somebody calling

You're so ordinary, be my sanctuary in the morning darling
New sensation, love vibrations, heart to heart and a dumb goodbye
Then you go your way, I'll go my way, life is truer than fiction in this
Crazy mixed up world of honey life is just an illusion darling

Easy like a bird I ride the breeze my mind is falling

You're so ordinary, be my sanctuary in the morning darling
New sensation, love vibrations, heart to heart and a long goodbye
You go your way, I'll go my way, life is truer than fiction in this crazy
Mixed up world of honey life is just an illusion

You're so ordinary, sanctuary, be my one in the morning darling
The new sensation, love vibrations, heart to heart and a dumb goodbye
Then you go your way, I'll go my way, life is truer than fiction in this
Crazy mixed up world of honey life is just an illusion

You're so ordinary, sanctuary, be my light in the morning darling
The new sensation, love vibrations, heart to heart and a long goodbye
Then you go your way, I'll go my way, life is truer than fiction in this
Crazy mixed up world of honey life is just an illusion darling




"Ariel---" Shin's voice cracked with emotional pain as the man's form vanished from the dream. "Iya..." The pale man shook his head. "I won't let it happen...." he whispered as he hugged himself tightly.

'One future....' his own voice rang throught the dream.

"Chigau!" Shin exclaimed, looking up, fists clentched. "I can change it... There's no use seeing if you can't do a thing about it so I MUST be able to change it!"

Ariel's limp form resurfaced, ghostly and barely there.

"I won't let it happen," Shin repeated, unconciously placeing his hand over his chest where the pendent lay warm agaist his skin. "I will protect him..." he whispered stongly. "I won't let her kill him....."

Random castle-future

Nav paused, looking at the figure in front of him. Slowly something clicked in his mind as the peices fit to place. Slowly,he took a step back.

"Nav?"

"You're not him..." Nav said slowly. "Why are you--" He's expression slowly changed, eyes hardening. "I'll kill you... for DAREING to take his form...." he hissed darkly, a ball of energy forming in his hands.

More Castle future

"It's not here... she's dead..."

"Don't you think I know that?" The man's voice was soft and dark. Slowly, he stood and looked at the woman. "I wanted to know why she was here... I avenged her long ago, she should be at peace...."

Profacy fufilled?

Gabriel arched an eyebrow. "Oh, truly." he stated. "Why don't I kill you, then?" He extended two forked blades from his hands.
Shin closed his eyes. "Why don't you?" he asked softly.
"You want to die?"
"Not really, but it seams to be the only way to resolve this." Shin sighed again.
"Sensible boy." Gabriel smirked. "Aren't you lucky? I don't wish to ravage you before I kill you."
"Lucky me," Shin said dryly.
"What? Would you rather I did?"
"Not really. I just figured you'd do it anyway. it doesn't matter now anyway."
"It will come swiftly and with a marginal amount of pain." Gabriel stated. "At this point, I don't really care what the consequences are, as long as I can kill you. Any last proclaiments?"
"Why do you want to do this so badly?" Shin asked, voice soft.
"Because as long as the destroyer of my life stays alive and with prizes he does not deserve, I will never be happy again."
Shin was quiet.
"Good enough for you?" He asked, retracting the blades.
"Does it matter?"
"Not really." Gabriel smiled. "It will be very nice to not have to worry about you. Goodnight, Shin." He leaned down, and kissed Shin deeply, sliding his tongue along the boy's teeth and pressing his palm to Shin's chest.
Shin tensed a moment, then forced himself to relax. His mind reached out and located Ariel.
Gabriel called the ice from Shin's insides, and made it into several tall spikes which protruded around his hand. One, he made sure, pierced Shin's heart.
Shin gave a strangled cry, body spasming. Tears flowed from eyes closed eyes. "A--riel--" he breathed as the life began fleeing his body.
Footsteps were heard at the doorway, and Gabriel drew back to see what he had done to Shin. He jumped when he heard a tortured scream from behind him. Retreating from Shin, Gabriel saw his brother at the room's entrance.
"What.." the redhead began, disbelieving. He started to fall as his knees gave way, and Gabriel caught him, steadying his younger brother. "No..get away.." Ariel pushed Gabriel aside, and went to Shin, body, kneeling before it. "Shin!" he cried at the body. Passing his hand over the boy's chest, he found that no healing could bring him back. He screamed again in anguish, and muffled himself by burying his face in Shin's limp shoulder. By pressing his body to Shin's, he drew blood from the spikes protruding from the small white body. Gabriel thought to melt them, seeing as how the damage had been done.

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"Stable?! You can't even heal yourself, why do you entertain the possibility of healing me?" Gabriel shook his brother violently. "Mother should have slain you in the cradle--"
"Gabriel!"
"--For all the good it did her--for all the good loving you did *me*!"
Ariel stopped struggling and was frozen in fear.
"I intend to correct that error now, Ariel. Twenty five years and killing you is really the only way-- before we both slip into madness's oblivion."

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Slowly, he walked over to the coffen, expresion pained. Gently, he lifted the lid. "Ariel," he said softly, brushing his fingers across the redhaired man's cheek.
Ariel shook at Shin's touch and opened his eyes, but did not look up. "Eight and twenty." he said, almost silently.
"No," Shin said softly.

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"C;mon, outside. Recess time."
"But..." Shin said in a slightly frightend voice, clutching his lunchbox to his chest.
"It's the rules, unless you have a pass, everybody goes outside for recess, and becides, you look like you could use some sun."
"But I---"
"Listen kid, you're in 7th grade and afraid of a little fresh air? C'mon..." The lunch lady began gently pushing the white haired boy outside.
Shin bit his lip, eyeing the playgound nervously. 'I should have stayed home...' he though, unconciously clutching his lunch box closer. This was the first day he had gone to school when Kosei had been absent. Slowly he began walking towards the corner of the feild, where a rock with a flat top rested in the sun. Sitting down on it he gave a sigh and pulled out his sketchpad and pencil. Flipping open to a fresh page, he began to draw.
"Hey, freakboy."
Shin froze.
There was a smug chuckle. "Where's yer bitch of a sister eh?" the bully smirked, roughtly elbowing the smaller boy in the arm.
Shin winced, holding his arm. "She-- she's home sick..." he said softly, trying to keep his voice from tembling.
"Too bad for you, eh?" another bully smirked, joining his friend.
Shin paled, eyes frightened.
"Hey, what ya got there?" the frist bully snatched away the drawing pad.
"Don't--" Shin began reaching for it, but was roughly pushed back agaist the rock.
"Hmm... Crap, crap, worse crap," the bully ripped out a page with each judgement.
"Please, those--"
"Hey, this a party?" a third boy asked, approching.
"Yeah, we're just about to beat the crap outta Freak-o, wanna help?"
Shin swolled hard and tried to get away.
"Hey, where are you going?"
Shin gave a cry as he was yanked back by his hair.
"Nice," the larger boy said aprazingly, looking at his fist of the white hair. "Makes a good handle, ya think?"
"Betcha we could hang him from it and use him for batting practice."
The trio laughed.
"So, Freak-o, any last requests before we pound ya into the ground?"
Shin opened his mouth, but was punched in the gut before he could form words.
"Didn't think so."
Shin gave a pained cry and tried to sheild himself as he was attacked. He was passed back and forth around the circle, receiving blows and insults from each before being roughly shoved to the next. "S-s--stop! Please!" he begged, eyes overflowing with tears.
As for an answer, he was slammed full force into the corner of the rock. He gave a choked scream as intence pain flooded him, and he felt something in his back snap though the skin.
"Shit dude!" came a paniced exclamation as Shin's lower body went limp and he fell to the ground, eyes closing.
"Shit, man, get the nurse! I think you fuckin' killed him!"
That was the last thing Shin heard before he lost conciousness.


'SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT,' Aralu thought, watching the frail boy fall. 'You!' she called to one of the small shadows near her. 'Go get the Kagegami.'
As it disappeared, she crouched next to Shin, becoming partially physical to tend to him mildly. She passed her hand over his back to assess the damage and winced, cutting his life force away from the wrecked body and anchoring it to his head.
"Don't worry," she whispered, half aloud, "Kajiro will get here and you'll be better. We won't let you die." She stroked his hair, stopping as she realized that there was activity going on inside his head. "No," she whispered, incredulous. "You can't dream now, you'll go insane."
She took a deep breath and entered his head, pushing him into a sleep deeper than dreams and creating a dream catcher around him. When she returned to the outside world, Kajiro was next to Shin's body.
'Kajiro! You can do something, right?'
'I am able to seal his bone stucture back to it's previous condition, but I cannot do anything to repare the damage done to his nervous system or digestive system.' The Shadow said as he sunk an extention of himself into the wound. A few moments later, he restracted it. 'I have done what I can.'
Aralu winced. 'I'm no healer...' she said, placing her hands over his body and extending her influence into him. Putting all of her will into it, she made his body retie all of its systems together and repair the nerves.

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He gave a startled exclamation as he flew backwards and his head slammed into a brick wall. He slid to the pavement, eyes closing, body going limp like a marionette whose strings had been cut.
Kosei froze. "Shin?"
The boy didn't move.
"Oh god," Kosei whispered, seeing a small patch of red marring the white of her brother's scalp. "Oh god....."

More random Damocles.

"You-- you were rather frightening, Gabriel," Shin said quietly. "You had blood all over you and you kept screaming---"
"I know." Gabriel interrupted. "I was there."


Ariel breathed out a sigh and handed the letter to Shin. "Please don't put yourself in danger, I couldn't bare it."
Shin gave Ariel a hug. "It's a bit late unfortunaly."

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Gabriel looked down at the snow-covered earth below him. "I wonder if I would die from cold."
Shin rose to his feet and walked over to the window. "You might," he said softly. "But you don't die from the cold of your ice,"
"I tried to sleep in a snowdrift once when father had kicked me out of the house." Gabriel said absently.
"I fell asleep in one once, when I was ten. Kosei flipped out because she couldn't find me. I blended in. I woke up an hour later, compleatly covered. I would have died from the cold if Mom hadn't come."
Gabriel chuckled slightly. "You blended in.."
Shin gave a soft smile. "That;s why I like snow. Noone notices me in it."
"It took me so long to figure out how to create it." Gabriel joined the subject. "It takes concentration."
"You can make snow?" SHin looked over at the other man.
Gabriel nodded.
"Impresive," Shin smiled.
"I like ice better." Gabriel stated bitterly.
Since winced. "Sorry," he said softly, looking back out the window. "Why?"
"Because snow lets itself be pushed around."
Shin was quiet. "I think I understand. Ice is stonger, more agressive. It causes pain and injury. Snow is passive, and flys in the breese," he leaned out the window some, letting a few flakes fall upon him. "You are the ice, I am the snow. I wouldn't trade it."
"Nor I." Gabriel said. "Snow and ice may feel the same, but they are entirely different creatures."
"They don't feel the same. They just have the same oragin,"
"Snow can be turned into ice by severe trauma, but one must kill the form of ice in order to ake it snow." Gabriel retorted.
Shin nodded. "but in the spring they both melt."
Gabriel nodded. "Curse that spring."
Shin gave a small smile. "The spring returns everything to it's source, so the cycle can begin anew."
"And everything is combined: Thrown into chaos. The winter brings the seperation and purity of a perfect world."
"And what was ice can become snow, and what was snow can become ice,"
"Indeed. Which is why spring is to be damned." Gabriel blew his breath out of the window and watched it vaporize.
Shin shook his head. "It's like life. Spring is death for some, and rebirth for others."
"But it's not like life at all! People are not reborn annually and have the pleasure of knowing how eachother feels! We are all seperate in out misery." Gabriel stated quickly.
"It's an anlogy. People are reborn every lifetime. And not everyone is seperate," He looked out at the snow covered land, his expresion of a mildlonging. "I've always wondered," he said, fingers idily drawing patterns on the window sill, "what would happen if I jumped. If I let the snow reclaim me." He closed his eyes, leaning farther out the window, letting the snow fall upon his face.
Gabriel looked at Shin a while. "Do you want me to give you a push?"
Shin shook his head. "No," he said softly. "I'm not alseep."
"I didn't think you were." Gabriel said.
"If I was, I could let you. But--" he trailed off. "Sorry," he said, shaking his head slightly. "I--" he pulled his head inside the window, expresion slightly troubled.
"I'm used to people talking nonsense." Gabriel said calmly. "I think we'll have to agree to disagree on that one. Being that our spiritual beliefs are different."
"I don;t-- I don't think that was nonsence.." Shin bit his lip, brow furrowed. He shook his head slightly again, dislodging the rest of the flakes. "But I think your right about the beleifs."
Gabriel nodded. "Buddhist, then, are you?"
"Mostly," Shin nodded. "And you?"
"Roman Catholic. But not very faithful, I fear." Gabriel smirked. "Considering.."

Damocles Summery

"You will be ever invading other's dreams, only to find yourself forbidden to invade your own."


Shin was a dreamgazer who was condemned to dream the nightmares of others at the age of three, when he sacrificed himself to save his twin sister. Now 19, he has lived a shadow of a life, body weakened from the strain of his nightly torture. Now the Shadows that bound his mind have come to reclaim him.


"You are about to be used to obtain a glorious and magnificent fate..."


Body bound, and mind free, Shin struggles to stay whole, torn between his protector who controls him, the man who wants to, and the enigma that draws him in like a moth to flame. Desperate to escape, Shin appeals to the people he is forced to hurt, and finds help from a very unlikely source: A half demon, a runaway slave, and a two-year-old.


"A half demon, another man, Hawk, a boy, an androgynous youth, a little girl, and another hideous female. They're all in a car together."


A road trip running from authorities picks up a bizarre collection of individuals, each moreso than the last. With no set destination except 'the next coffee shop', they find themselves unwittingly becoming part of a personal war, one which they are more than willing to fight, each for their own reasons...

Random Shin ponderance.

If he would had shorter hair, he wouldn't have had quite as many problems. Kosei's an idoit... but we all knew that already. :)

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There was pounding on the door. "Shinkou? Shinkou, I know you're in there!" Aralu's voice shouted through. Not getting a response, the woman opened the door and entered.
The room was a complete wreck. Almost everything that could be broken, torn apart or thrown had been. Everything had been torn from the walls, thrown off shelves and swept off every surface, making the room look like the aftermath of a huricane. Aralu stared mutely at the carnage for a moment, then at Shin. He was curled tighlty in a ball, his skin marred by the beginings of countless bruses and many small cuts, some with bits of glass or wood in them.
"Damn," Aralu breathed. "Shin..." She started toward the young man and paused as she stepped on glass. With only a moment's hesitation, she scooped him up and transported both of them to his old room. She set him down on the bed and began de-splintering him. "So, who did this, huh?" She stroked his hair lightly. "You're a mess, you know that. I'm going to get Ariel." She paused, awaiting a response of any kind.
Shin made no movement or acknolagement, staying curled as he had been.
"Shinkou," Aralu started, concerned. She stopped and shook her head. "Get him fixed, then find out what broke him. I'm getting Ariel," she repeated. "You're safe here. The only others who can get in here are Ariel and Helena." Still not receiving a response, she stroked his hair one more time and went in search of the red-haired scientist.

If Shin thinks he has it bad in this Uni.... (A what if)

Shin opened his eyes slowly and wearily.
"He's awake,"
He sat up slowly and an attendant brought over a large cup of water. Eyes half closed he drank, wincing as he was injected with something.
He didn't know what time is was, what day it was, or season, or even year. Everything blurred together. He could briefly get a glimpse of the outside world through the dreams of others, but only briefly.
"My pretty little DreamGazer," a female voice purred.
Shin lowered his eyes, and didn't speak. He wasn't sure if he even could anymore, not that it mattered.
A chilled hand lightly caressed his face and he closed his eyes, wondering what she wanted this time. It was always bad when she visited him.
"I have a special assignment for you," she cooed.
Shin felt the information enter his mind through the mental brand she had imposed.
"It's more a punishment for his brother, but Gabriel is still useful."
Internally, Shin winced. To inflict that kind of damage on a mind that hadn't even be the one who had done the crime... He finished drinking the water and the cup was taken from him.
"Do open your eyes dear, and look at me."
Shin obeyed, looking dully into the eyes of his owner, captor and master.
She stoked the side of his face, bringing a few of the long brown strands of his unkept hair to the front. "I think after your task, I shall clean you up," she smiled.
Shin lowered his gaze, knowing what happened after he was cleaned...
She chuckled, and pushed the thin, pale boy down again. "Sleep now, play later," she smiled as Shin fell asleep.

#1 Crush

With a Shin skin...I need to find the lyrics now...

I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side, to know that you're mine

I would cry for you
I would cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears, I'm drowning on fear

I will pray for you
I will pray for you,
I will sell my soul for something pure and true, someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time that I'm talkin'
You will believe in me, and I will never be ignored

I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart, and tear it apart

I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see, you're just like me

Violate all the love that I'm missin'
Throw away all the pain that I'm livin'
You will believe in me, and I can never be ignored

I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I will wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sink ships for you,
Take the cross for you
Make me a part of you
Because I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you

goddamnit....

(As I put on my Alcatraz shirt for my presentation..)

My sleep cycle has been throughtly fucked up.

FranTheNut: Currently I'm trying to figure out what has caused my sleep patters to be so f ucked up this week... I wasn' in marlboro long enough for to have.... *sigh*
FranTheNut: Hopfuly it'll fix itself soon...
JudySama: yeeeeeeeeeeah
FranTheNut: ('tis rather irratating to be tired all during the daylight and then be wide awake at 3am...)
FranTheNut: [I am NOT a vampire damn it, fix that! *kicks internal clock*
FranTheNut: (not like it works normaly, but....)

I'd blame Shin but then he'd blame me cause I created him, blah blah blah... grr... Lucky him get's to sleep damned near whenever and as long as he wants. *debates kicking him awake but decides agaist it*

*mutteres darkly* And there is no Zanna this week so I will have to find something else for him to do....(other wise he'll be way to active.. he already is....) But I think there's still an Ariel in there somwhere... but just his chibi, I think... the full sized one went home I beleive.... (else Shin wouldn't be buggin' me as much....)

With the Tainted love [Fuuma molesting Kamui who's trying to get away] skin....

 

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Brain.... like.... fuzzball!!! *said like Dib*

Gah.

This is starting to get irrataing... meh......

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WINTER KILLS

Green in your love on bright days
You grew sun blind you thought me unkind
To remind you how winter kills
Lost in daydreams you drove too fast and got nowhere
You rode on half fare when you got too scared
How winter kills
Tear at me searching for weaker seams
Pain in your eyes makes me cruel
Makes me spiteful tears are delightful welcome your nightfall
How winter kills
I'll tear at you searching for weaker seams
How winter kills

..... *deep sigh*

BRING YOUR LOVE DOWN (DIDN'T I)

You say it's time to leave now babe I can't believe
That you have the strength to go now
I won't stand in your way I'd be standing there all day
Ain't that something we both know now
You play your games but the fact remains
I'm the only one that can hold your reins

Didn't I bring your love down
Didn't I bring your love down all night

If you think you need a change well I'm sure we can arrange
For you to get on your own for awhile
But I don't need to worry 'cause you'll get back in a hurry
I know that you like my style
You play your games but the fact remains
I'm the only one that can hold your reins

Didn't I bring your love down
Didn't I bring your love down all night



TWO GUESSES what my brain is thinking of here.....

>.< Goddamnit.

*gives a wail of dispare*

GODDAMNIT!

It lookedlike Tomo posted... NOPE! GRR... C'mon guys, yer holdin' up the plot! Get yer asses to the friggin' palace already, cause we've been WAITING for what, months now. Grrr... I WANNA POST ALREADY!!!!


*throws a tempter tantrum*