bored...

bored, bored, bored.
And lazy.
I'll probally start replying to all of Tirtzah;s e-mail soon... and finish typing up the descitptsions for the Damocles characters Xella wanted... I just feel kinda bad 'cause Shin's descript is like... 14 lines or so, and Nav's is gonna be like... 7.... goddamnit. (I;ve been saying that alooot...)
Sigh... Both my presentations for class are on the same day...(meep...) and I have no idea what I'm doing for one of them...

*looks over at Zanna's window and resists the urge to beg to play....* I just read alot of Kakyou stuff and now I wanna play with Shin...
But she's busy, so I'll be good...
goddamnit.
I didn;t wake up with anything in my head this morning... it was annoying... hopefuly tomorrow.... *sigh*

I only took half my meds today. Was rather hyper ealier, but that might have been from the crispie-treats. I;m still too screwedup from before to tell if anythings better... But the orange pills are getting flushed....

Maybe I'll go reorgaize my X picts or actualy read the manga.. I'm so pissed off... the lastest installment was such filler... I didn't even bother looking at the scans... sucks......

And I still don't know which post is gonna count in Twisted... so I cna;t do anything tehre... ah well... *goes off to look for things to do*

Kakyou musings.

As I remember there's always a D to the M... [... and that's not a Mode refreance. Oye]

....

It's been 10 min, I can get irratated....
If I would have spoke faster, would she has remembered my existance?
'She could have been kicked' my inner voice of near reason and sanity (who is one of the few things in my head that are still me... and not my creations.)
Yes... but to be kicked so soon after the other left?
I've told her I get upset when I don't get a proper chance to say goodbye. Would it have killled her to stay on the extra minute it would have taken to exchange "Bye!'s?"

15 min now. And now even my voice of reason has admitted there's little chance she's coming back.

Is it that I'm just becoming an irrataion? I keep trying to start conversations...

And it's near a week since we've played.

Am I that dependent a writer? That I need someone else to work with in order to get ideas?

I'm going to sit here... read my X manga.... and listen to Chess while my inner selves rage agaist a wall they can't even feel.

Elements and Fate

Is Earth the only contrutive element?
Fire is destritive, burning away at whatever it touches.
Water warps and desolves and washes things away
Wind wears at you as well... contantly pushing and pulling to make everying you care about dance in the wind.
Earth can destroy as well, taking your footing from underyou and making things unpure.

But Earth is a passive element.... waiting to suck you down, like life itself.

"When the crazy wheel slows down... where will I be... back where I started......."

The Wheel-- ["It turns... it turns around... It makes an achient, rumbling sound..."] Fate.

One of Shin's cards.
and Kakyou's.

The diffrence is Shin is also Strength as well as the Hanged man.
He can change what he sees, eventhough he doesn't beleive that yet....
Aki saw his own death--- and that of Hitomi
Did he see what would happen to his children? What would happen to his son? How his daughter would grow hard and cruel, fighting agaist the world to protect someone she despised? How his son would live a shadow of a life... sleeping most of his life as he struggled to life a normal life...but knowing he never could... and eventualy giveing him and letting go of his normalicy... his humanity.. to be viewed as an object... something forgien to be stared at, because he couldn't take the pain of socity forcing him back out... and when he was starting to be acepted, to be crushed again by the person he cared about the most.
If he had... would he have gone that day? Challanging what he knew would happen?

Fate is set in stone... but stones can be broken. Webs can be destroyed, cords can be severed.

And THAT is the Sword.... Taken from the one it was hung over to destroy a future that would have destroyed the one who now weilds the Sword.

He should have been dead already... but Fate guided him... prepared him, set him up to hand him the Sword and watch him destory the careful web who's weave had been warped by chaos.

Lucifer was wrong.

Fate is a He.

Satsuki

I keep coming back to that picture... the icon...
I started out trying to find a picture of Yuzukiha with cat ears, because she was the closest (in my mind at the time) to me with looks and aditude, ect...

I don't even remember how I got to the Dragons of Earth folder...

I gave myself her hair. Or damned close to it...

And Bakami isn't as active as Beast is... but then again, I'm not a manga character (damnit. :)

But so many other things...
Makes me wonder what that says about me....

*wanderso ff to find the CLAMP character test*

More CLAMP

I took the quizzes:

X character I'm most like:

# 1 Yatouji Satsuki - dragon of earth
# 2 Arisugawa Sorata - dragon of heaven
# 3 Nekoi Yuzuriha - dragon of heaven
# 4 Kuzuki Kakyou - dragon of earth
# 5 Nataku - dragon of earth
# 6 Shirou Kamui - dragon of heaven
# 7 Sumeragi Subaru - dragon of heaven
# 8 Aoki Seiichirou - dragon of heaven
# 9 Kishuu Arashi - dragon of heaven
# 10 Shiyuu Kusanagi - dragon of earth
# 11 Kasumi Karen - dragon of heaven
# 12 Kigai Yuuto - dragon of earth
# 13 Monou Fuuma - dragon of earth
# 14 Sakurazuka Seishirou - dragon of earth


Which CLAMP series would I'd fit in:

# 1 Gouhou Drug
# 2 Card Captor Sakura
# 3 Tokyo Babylon
# 4 Wish
# 5 X/1999
# 6 Soryuuden
# 7 CLAMP Campus Cop Dukylon
# 8 Clover
# 9 Magic Knight Rayearth
# 10 RG Veda
# 11 20 Mensou ni Onegai
# 12 Angelic Layer
# 13 Chobbits
# 14 Miyuki-chan in Wonderland
# 15 Suki dakara Suki
# 16 CLAMP Campus Detectives


Now the: "The HELL!" analysis


X character I'm most like:
# 1 Yatouji Satsuki - dragon of earth
.. Gee. :)

# 2 Arisugawa Sorata - dragon of heaven
Whoo! Sora-chan! Wow, contrast... :)

# 3 Nekoi Yuzuriha - dragon of heaven
Yup yup. :) The bouncy part of me.

# 4 Kuzuki Kakyou - dragon of earth
Again, no suprise. :) [see prev. messynesses! :)

# 5 Nataku - dragon of earth
Erm... *blinks* This confuses me... More on this later?

# 6 Shirou Kamui - dragon of heaven
# 7 Sumeragi Subaru - dragon of heaven
In the middle we have the Angst twins. :)

# 8 Aoki Seiichirou - dragon of heaven
# 9 Kishuu Arashi - dragon of heaven
understandable, again, to start the lower half.

# 10 Shiyuu Kusanagi - dragon of earth
Aww... I'm not Hawk? *cough* sorry. :) I just realized most of my charcters Damocles were honery CLAMP characters. ;)

# 11 Kasumi Karen - dragon of heaven
# 12 Kigai Yuuto - dragon of earth
No suprize. I mean... Yuuto's way to polite to ever be me. ;)

# 13 Monou Fuuma - dragon of earth
# 14 Sakurazuka Seishirou - dragon of earth
... can I just say I'm rather releived these two are down here? :)



Which CLAMP series would I'd fit in:

# 1 Gouhou Drug
Erm.. the hell? This is the new series that has to do something with a drug store... okay, now I need to find summeries...

# 2 Card Captor Sakura
WHOO! *does a little dance* I'm there... :) *grabbs bike and dashes off yelling: 'I WANT LI-KUN'S OUTFIT!'*

# 3 Tokyo Babylon
Hehehee... this also I can see.. I'd be like.. one of Hokuto's friends or something... :)

# 4 Wish
Don;t beleive I've read/heard anything about this one...

# 5 X/1999
*nodnod* yup yup. See above! :)

# 6 Soryuuden
# 7 CLAMP Campus Cop Dukylon
Haven;t seen these..

# 8 Clover
# 9 Magic Knight Rayearth
AWw... those woulda been fun... :)

# 10 RG Veda
# 11 20 Mensou ni Onegai
# 12 Angelic Layer
# 13 Chobbits
# 14 Miyuki-chan in Wonderland
# 15 Suki dakara Suki
Haven't seen, but I've heard of Miyuki-chan... poor Miyukichan....

# 16 CLAMP Campus Detectives
THANK GOD. :)

Meh.

Morning..... *said in the Gabriel twitchy voice* Dispisable end of my sleeping....

...
Gah.

Zombie room?!?!??!?!?!?!!

Goddamnidiotannoyingnonsecicallyrics!! The hell was Mart on?!

But I love the chuckle.... hehehehehehe....

goddamn annoying YIM upgrade...

Didn;t save any settings except for the one for the font. The most useless of them all. Gaaaaah *sigh* At least it has a refresh button so I don;t have to make that my message so much.....

*giggle*

Damocles -- Invader Zim parody.

Zim -> Gabe
Gir -> Luke [With Lev as the pig.;)]
Gaz -> Helena [with a Shin tomogatchi instead of the gameslave.]
Dib -> Nav
Prof. Membrane -> Kajiro
The Almighty Tallest ->Omadon
Ms Bitters -> Mrs F


"And I will rule the Alliance with an iron fist! You! Obey the Fist!"

"Luke, I've been captured!" "Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!" "That's a BAD thing, Luke...." "Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!"

Class..

Ya know, it's really bad to start having a giggle fit in the middle of class when you're watching a movie on the KKK....

But we're watching this thing and it's really bad and over dramatic and my brain suddenly starts thinking of Damocles... Then Nav Vs. The KKK.... ^_^; I need help. Lots of it. :)

Vas/Val vs Yin-Yang

Apparently I swapped genders.... :)

Vas\Yang Val\Yin
Active Passive
Hot [Cold]
Summer Winter
Day Night
Sun Moon
Fire Water
Dominance Submission
Light Dark
Outside, surface Inside, interior
Destruction Conservation
Aggressiveness Responsiveness

[R] Female Male

[R] -> Reversed elemenets

And if this loses it's spacing I'll repost it so ya can read it easier and stuff...

Grr... VV-YY take 2

Trying this again....

Vas\Yang Val\Yin
Active Passive
Hot [Cold]
Summer Winter
Day Night
Sun Moon
Fire Water
Dominance Submission
Light Dark
Outside, surface Inside, interior
Destruction Conservation
Aggressiveness Responsiveness

[Reversed] Female Male

*sigh*

allright... I get to do this the annoying way.

Just kinda scroll to compair the lists. *mutter*

Vas\Yang
Active
Hot [Cold]
Day
Sun
Fire
Dominance
Light
Outside, surface
Destruction
Aggressiveness

[Reversed] Female
Val\Yin
Passive
[cold]
Night
Moon
Water
Submission
Dark
Inside, interior
Conservation
Responsiveness

[Reversed] Male

Things that amuse me: Take 1

Luna looked at the sky and was relieved to see some wispy and puffy clouds. After a moment of silence, she pointed at a cloud "Doesn't that one look like a turtle?" she asked thoughtfully.
"No," Shin said flatly.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

GAAAAAAAAAHH!! *Runs around trying hard not to scream for real* EEEEEEEVIL MP3 PLAYER!!!!
.... Happy Happy Joy Joy... with the Kakyou skin I based Shin on... the one where he looks dead....

...

..... Why is the shocked icon almost the same as the amused one? And why isn;t there one screaming in horror? oye.

Mmmmm.... Chocolate.....

Half-melted chocolate.... mmmmmmmm... Reeses... Cadberry bars... Hersey almond... and chocolate chip cookies.... Mmmmmmmm... it's too hot to diet. ;)

Playlist... and stuff.

My mp3 list is truly weird.... Kodocha to Korn to Labrynth to Loreena McKennett to Gabage to Depeche Mode to Sarah Brightman to Dido to Dennis Leary to Delerium to random Jpop to Chess to Sakura to Nine Inch Nails to Sailor Moon to October Project..... Like HELL yer Ariel, Seishirou! *changes the skin* Meh... anyway... um.... now I've forgotten the point of this... hell. Maybe that;s why I have all of these stupid short entries... my brain flakes and I forget what the point is before I get to it...

*giggle* Xella drew Shin... Fanart...*giggles again* Wow... this is so sad, but I'm just really grinning up a storm that there are people who like Damocles enough to put some of their creative energy into stuff like that. (And it's one of MY characters! *giggles, hugs self and twirls a couple times before falling onto the bed really dizzy*

And it;s odd with this, 'cause it's like yer writing in a diary, but it's one that everyone can read.... So ya have to be crypic at times.... *pauses* *giggles* The gloom fairy can kiss my ass! *butt wiggle dance* [In the dead of night mrs bitters! *giggles insanely*] Wow... Not like she'd ever read this... though the link is in my profile... *Shrug*

YOU! Obey the fist!

..
.

And as this isn't sending I'll blathe more. :)
NP: Kodomo no Omocha - DAIJO-BU (2nd Ed) With the Zel being used as an arm rest by Rezo. How the hell can he read when he;s blind? [and why the hell he feels the need to wear glasses.. oye. :)

Hm... wonder if it'll work this time.... *click*

GaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*twitch* *twitch* *bangs head repeatedly into a wall*

Fate is being cruel to me...

Teasing me...

But half a page is better then nothing... right?

Right.

...

But that doesn't make me feel any better.

I NEED something to MOVE damnit! Progress!!

Maybe I am obsessive compulive, I really don't care. I'm #$@$%#in' SICK of the med situation....

One day I'm just going to flush them all...

Except the thyroid one... *dark muttering* Unfontunatly, I need that one so I don't turn into Shin.... goddamnit....

And I think I'd rather deal with the swings then the sides...

"God grant me the patience to deal with what I cannot change.
And god give me the will power not to beat the SHIT out of the next asshole who deserves it."


Gah.