Juchan again

See, Xella? I don't need to get one of my own. :)

Fran and Zänna [side note: cool! it worked!] went to Shoujo-con, so I'm alone today. CD's about over, so I'm going to watch the Esca dub and try to figure out what I'm going to do for 3 pages on my American Lit paper. The Myth papers have been reduced to 3 because I really have nothing to say with the fourth one.

Other than that: I like Dita. She's one of the food services people. She works the register on weekends over the summer, and the café in Old Main during the year. Fran and I have hung out with her a lot this past year, so she knows us. At any rate, I was going up to lunch and Dita says "Something looks wrong here? Where's Fran?" And I told her about Shoujo-con, which she said sounded like fun, and the fact that Fran got picked up at 7:30 for it. Her eyes widened and she said "Wow, that's amazing. She was up that early?"

I like Dita.

And then I sat with Michael, who was telling a girl he knows about how he almost got into a threesome with his first crush and his first crush's girlfriend. I've heard the story already. The biggest shock of it was that he kissed a girl. With tongue. But anyway, I sat down and he asked me "Where's your other half?" So I got to explain Shoujo-con again. And then he went back to his story. Michael's silly.

I like campus. :)

Still Juchan

Welp, watched the better part of an episode and had to stop. Allen's voice wasn't too bad, although it was a bit too monotone. Dornkirk's voice was good, and Folken's wasn't too bad either. The translation and the cutting.... that's a different story entirely. The only thing I'd do with this would be to get good unsubbed screencaps.... And I can't....

So, listening to the Esca soundtracks now. :)

Still me. :)

I miss Tirtzah. :(

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With the Yukito/Yue skin Fran made. Now if it had used this skin with the previous song [Confrontation] it would have been really funny.

*sigh* I've talked a lot in here today haven't I? Well, a lot for me. I miss my Fran. :(

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Woohoo! Rescued the last creation myth. Had to for Amanda. So I'm pleased with it again. :)

And Fran's home. She spent lots of money and tomorrow she's going to spend more to get shelves to put all her stuff on. Just as long as I don't have to acrry them home from Ames. ^^;

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! *giggle*

I got the You Higuri artbooook! *giggle*

And lots of CLAMP goodness. Latest X... Tokyo Babalon (1-4I think) 5 Sakura manga (YUE! ;) and a random You Higuri one called 'Flower' and the new CLAMP one. :)


And I saw the first 3 eps of 'I wanna be an angel' (Tenshi ni narunon?) Think... Kodocha minus the plot + random demon/angel/otherworld critters + more sugar and cuteness.

The main character girl must be made a goth and force fed lithium...
But I like Criptic Boy (Ishida Akiria!) And the bad guy is phsycotic (think... um.. gabe + Luke + Ichabod + the entire Dead Moon Circus (SM-SS) in one wonked/obsessed guy with harpsachord background music. And his poor gothic female versiono f Ariel was kinda neat too.

And then there's this vampire-type guy with purple hair, an Osaka accent & Tasuki's voice actor and personality to match... named Gabriel.
*giggle* He was running from this cat girl so he can keep the name but Zanna SHRIEKED.... twas much fun...

So... 4 characters that are good... maybe I'll see an ep ion the middle. :)

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I think I know and understand this one... but I don;'t know how to fix it.

Kaworu and Houjun. 1st year. Being alone and needing.

".. our codependance..."

We strengthen each other...

But which are we? Does it matter? They both need each other...


"Kaworu?" she asked softly. "Am-- am I hurting you? Am-- am I the cause of all your pain?"
"No," he said immediately.
"Kaworu... please... you can tell me anything... I-- I need to know, because if it's true..." she trailed off. "I don't want to cause you pain..."
Kaworu looked down, brow furrowing. "I-- It hurts when I have to choose... between you and him... It hurts... that I can't be what you want... or what he needs..." He looked back up. "It's not your fault."
"But you are what I want...." she said, hugging him tighter. "Does-- does it seem that... you have to choose?"
Kaworu looked away, nodding. "I-- when he needs me... I can't be with you then. And you--" He paused. "You don't want me to go to him," he finished, quietly.
"I don't want to lose you to him..." she corrected softly.
Kaworu looked at her in incomprehension. "You couldn't."
She was quiet a moment. "Do you love him?" she asked, voice almost inaudible.
His eyes widened, almost in fear, and he avoided her gaze. "I-- I-- Yes," he said. He tensed as if expecting a blow.
She was quiet a long moment. "But-- but you still love me... right?" she asked, voice unsure and on the verge of tears.
Kaworu stared at her. "Houjun..." he breathed. "I am yours. I need you more than anything. I love you more than my life. Nothing will ever ever change that."
She gave a choked sob and clutched at him tightly, tears of relief spilling over.
He held her. "You don't ever have to be afraid you'll lose me. I'll love you beyond life. I'll love you until the world ends and everything spins into chaos, and then I'll still love you."
She hugged him tighter. "Kaworu..." Her voice shaking with every emotion she couldn't convey in words. After a few moments, she pulled herself together again. "When-- whenever there's the need... you can go to him... just always come back to me... please?" she said in a small voice.
Gratitude flooded him. "Always," he whispered. "When this world ends and another takes its place, I will still always come back to you. You ARE my world." He buried his face in her hair. "Thank you," he breathed.

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Kaworu's brow furrowed. "I don't know if you can understand, Shin. Have you ever had something happen so that you wished you were dead? What about something that made you wish you hadn't been born? I--" He looked at his hands. "I've had to do so many things, had to let so many people take whatever they wanted from me, and none of them wanted anything more than physical satisfaction... But Houjun... The first time we had sex, she said that since it was the first time I'd gotten any pleasure out of it that she was my first. And I knew it wasn't true, but for a moment it felt like it was." He looked up, tears in his eyes. "She made me feel pure, Shin. When we're together... when she's not afraid, and there's no one to see us... that's how she always makes me feel. I WANT to be hers."


Is there a thread in there? A thread in this web that shines with your gold?

Gold and blue...

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"...You... never... give me the words... I'm expecting to hear from you... do you."