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45 min til class!
Posting from school!
.. yeah, I'm bored. Took my test at 1, finished at 1:30ish. Next class is at 3:30 Did my homework for tomorrow, puttered around on the Inet, still have 45 min.
As I got to say I'm not sure why I update this when not many people follow it, then realise that it's mostly just for me. Someplace for me to just blather on when noone's on IM or where there is no IM.
[side note: it's very strange when a Spanish word sounds Japanese from across the room. :D]
besides, they say that journaling about your feelings and stuff is good for you. Gets your feelings out into little symbols on either a piece of paper or a virtual one and helps you set down things in a lasting fashion.
And this version of firefox has a spellchecker. I need to find out how to get that on mine at home. :DDD
And I did something I know I shouldn't have and now my stomach is doing mild after adrenaline stuff. Who knows, maybe Yoga will help. If it weren't so durn damp and cold out, I'd go out and quazi meditate under the trees but... cold. wet. Yuck.
So yeah. I think I reached a limit there. Gonna try and let it go.
Got most the classes I wanted to at GMC. Sadly, Homesteader Ecology is full. T_T So I'll get some other gen ed in there. Should hear back from that today. My brain's having a hard time grasping that today is Tuesday. :) I mean, I went from work to campus, it should be Wednesday, right?
.. dude. Apparently my hands are cold cause my fingernails are PURPLE. Crazy...
I dunno. There are sometimes where I really do wonder if my brainlessness is what kept things as they were. Cause I tend to just go with things and adjust on my end in the name of harmony and what not.
But... geeze. It just... Seeing what happened, and then seeing what the other side said about it and going '...' Two completely different views of an event. Uncomfortably reminds me of someone else, where it makes me wonder if all the things said before were really like the one that just happened. (ooo, vaguely cryptic!)
Sometimes I wonder if, if people were suddenly able to see clearly.... would we all go mad? The amount of illusions we wrap about ourselves, the amount of stories we spin to change the truth, the things we sculpt to make ourselves look better... We start believing them. Pot kettle, speck of dust, ect. When we become the very things we hate and rage about...
It just really makes me wonder what happened. Or if this was something that's been happening all long and just crescendoed into a massive disharmonic symphony of negativity.
Half hour til class.
Of course, my view doesn't count, because I'm seeing what's going on from the other side. Part of me wants to link to the post that this all fell out of, so show all those who are agreeing with what's said, that what is said isn't at all what happened. Just to say "THIS is what sparked it" and see what those views, those apart from energy that has apparently snowballed to this moment, take from that moment.
And the part of this all that continues to just strike me is the raging over assumptions that was made so recently.
Isn't what you're doing right now, making assumptions?
I try not to be a hypocrite. I worry about it sometimes. I don't preach anything that I don't practice, or that I don't attempt to. Hell, I don't even think I really preach, though I'm sure some would disagree.
Sharing information doesn't necessarily mean that you're telling someone to change. Sometime sharing information is just another form of communicating. It's a way of saying 'Hey! I thought this was really neat! Look at it and then maybe we can talk about it!'
Because there's only so many times you can type the same things over and over again. There's only so many times you can write the same thing over and over again.
[damn, my nails are seriously purple. O.o]
Part of me wants to just lash out. Part of me wants to just say everything that I haven't because there was no point. Why say something that you know only serves to make someone unhappy? There;'s not really a point to it, not now, not then.
Bleh. My hands are cold. 25 min til class. I think I've rambled enough.
.. yeah, I'm bored. Took my test at 1, finished at 1:30ish. Next class is at 3:30 Did my homework for tomorrow, puttered around on the Inet, still have 45 min.
As I got to say I'm not sure why I update this when not many people follow it, then realise that it's mostly just for me. Someplace for me to just blather on when noone's on IM or where there is no IM.
[side note: it's very strange when a Spanish word sounds Japanese from across the room. :D]
besides, they say that journaling about your feelings and stuff is good for you. Gets your feelings out into little symbols on either a piece of paper or a virtual one and helps you set down things in a lasting fashion.
And this version of firefox has a spellchecker. I need to find out how to get that on mine at home. :DDD
And I did something I know I shouldn't have and now my stomach is doing mild after adrenaline stuff. Who knows, maybe Yoga will help. If it weren't so durn damp and cold out, I'd go out and quazi meditate under the trees but... cold. wet. Yuck.
So yeah. I think I reached a limit there. Gonna try and let it go.
Got most the classes I wanted to at GMC. Sadly, Homesteader Ecology is full. T_T So I'll get some other gen ed in there. Should hear back from that today. My brain's having a hard time grasping that today is Tuesday. :) I mean, I went from work to campus, it should be Wednesday, right?
.. dude. Apparently my hands are cold cause my fingernails are PURPLE. Crazy...
I dunno. There are sometimes where I really do wonder if my brainlessness is what kept things as they were. Cause I tend to just go with things and adjust on my end in the name of harmony and what not.
But... geeze. It just... Seeing what happened, and then seeing what the other side said about it and going '...' Two completely different views of an event. Uncomfortably reminds me of someone else, where it makes me wonder if all the things said before were really like the one that just happened. (ooo, vaguely cryptic!)
Sometimes I wonder if, if people were suddenly able to see clearly.... would we all go mad? The amount of illusions we wrap about ourselves, the amount of stories we spin to change the truth, the things we sculpt to make ourselves look better... We start believing them. Pot kettle, speck of dust, ect. When we become the very things we hate and rage about...
It just really makes me wonder what happened. Or if this was something that's been happening all long and just crescendoed into a massive disharmonic symphony of negativity.
Half hour til class.
Of course, my view doesn't count, because I'm seeing what's going on from the other side. Part of me wants to link to the post that this all fell out of, so show all those who are agreeing with what's said, that what is said isn't at all what happened. Just to say "THIS is what sparked it" and see what those views, those apart from energy that has apparently snowballed to this moment, take from that moment.
And the part of this all that continues to just strike me is the raging over assumptions that was made so recently.
Isn't what you're doing right now, making assumptions?
I try not to be a hypocrite. I worry about it sometimes. I don't preach anything that I don't practice, or that I don't attempt to. Hell, I don't even think I really preach, though I'm sure some would disagree.
Sharing information doesn't necessarily mean that you're telling someone to change. Sometime sharing information is just another form of communicating. It's a way of saying 'Hey! I thought this was really neat! Look at it and then maybe we can talk about it!'
Because there's only so many times you can type the same things over and over again. There's only so many times you can write the same thing over and over again.
[damn, my nails are seriously purple. O.o]
Part of me wants to just lash out. Part of me wants to just say everything that I haven't because there was no point. Why say something that you know only serves to make someone unhappy? There;'s not really a point to it, not now, not then.
Bleh. My hands are cold. 25 min til class. I think I've rambled enough.