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I think KnN's going on permanate holiday.
Or at least on a very long one. Maybe I'll update with teh caps I've made but...
I just don't care anymore. It's been two years. I'm amazed I had the attention span for that long of a haul.
Nothing new is comign out, GX has started sucking, I don't care about Doma, AE pissed me off. Maybe I'll go and finish the DK recap. And at some point I want to go cap the 'evil Yuugi' ep. And get ep 199 on DVD and cap the first 5 min o that properly. But it's not like I have the money to go randomly get that DVD or anything.
Yeah.
...
I just don't care about it anymore, ya know? I hate the fandom, 99% of everything Yuugiou related out there is pure crap and missinformation. So why am I stressing over this? I pisses me off every error I find, and there's getting to be more and more of those. Indexes updated but never uploaded, copy paste errors. Galleries in dissaray.
Yuugiou isn't even my favorite anime.
Fan pages aren't going to get you anywhere. It's not like I'm doing anything orginal here. I'm taking screencaps of someone elses work.
I don;t think I know what I want to do at the moment. Well.. in the long run. I want to get my degree finaly. Again, I'm unsure about in what. I may swich from PR to Digital Media or another consentration in com. I was looking at the newspaper the otehr day and there was a beautiful photos of the sun setting over a lake... and I thought: "I want to do that."
So why am I planning on majoring in PR? Hasn't running KnN taught me anything? Just because I do it anyway doesn't mean I should do it for a living.
Indesisive? Maybe.
I know I'm horribly antisocial. I have my Judy and now the Kristen and everyone else is via my computer. And even then, I know I'm not good at keeping up friendships. I look at my buddy list and feel guilty at times. It's like seeing fragements of reflections. Here's someone from PF. Here's someone I used to chat with for ages on AIM. Here's someone from campus. Here's a family member I never speak with. Here's an old friend that I used to talk on the phone with for hours about everything. Here's someone I only really chat with to RP.
I'm not good with people. I'm not good with relationships. Most of my life, my computer was my best friend. Even on campus, I had barely any intreaction with the group I considered close friends. I spent most of my time online.
Yet even now, my buddy list is shrinking. Half of the people on it, I never talk to anyway. I'm not even sure who half these people are anymore.
Consider my LJ profile... 36 people on the mutual friends section. 48 others have me friended. I don;'t even read half the entries on my friends page. I skim alot of them. Some people I have on there because I know there'd be issues if I took them off. Why that should stop me, I don;t know. Guess I'm afraid of hurting people's feelings or something like that.
I don;'t understand why everyone says I'm so nice....
Or at least on a very long one. Maybe I'll update with teh caps I've made but...
I just don't care anymore. It's been two years. I'm amazed I had the attention span for that long of a haul.
Nothing new is comign out, GX has started sucking, I don't care about Doma, AE pissed me off. Maybe I'll go and finish the DK recap. And at some point I want to go cap the 'evil Yuugi' ep. And get ep 199 on DVD and cap the first 5 min o that properly. But it's not like I have the money to go randomly get that DVD or anything.
Yeah.
...
I just don't care about it anymore, ya know? I hate the fandom, 99% of everything Yuugiou related out there is pure crap and missinformation. So why am I stressing over this? I pisses me off every error I find, and there's getting to be more and more of those. Indexes updated but never uploaded, copy paste errors. Galleries in dissaray.
Yuugiou isn't even my favorite anime.
Fan pages aren't going to get you anywhere. It's not like I'm doing anything orginal here. I'm taking screencaps of someone elses work.
I don;t think I know what I want to do at the moment. Well.. in the long run. I want to get my degree finaly. Again, I'm unsure about in what. I may swich from PR to Digital Media or another consentration in com. I was looking at the newspaper the otehr day and there was a beautiful photos of the sun setting over a lake... and I thought: "I want to do that."
So why am I planning on majoring in PR? Hasn't running KnN taught me anything? Just because I do it anyway doesn't mean I should do it for a living.
Indesisive? Maybe.
I know I'm horribly antisocial. I have my Judy and now the Kristen and everyone else is via my computer. And even then, I know I'm not good at keeping up friendships. I look at my buddy list and feel guilty at times. It's like seeing fragements of reflections. Here's someone from PF. Here's someone I used to chat with for ages on AIM. Here's someone from campus. Here's a family member I never speak with. Here's an old friend that I used to talk on the phone with for hours about everything. Here's someone I only really chat with to RP.
I'm not good with people. I'm not good with relationships. Most of my life, my computer was my best friend. Even on campus, I had barely any intreaction with the group I considered close friends. I spent most of my time online.
Yet even now, my buddy list is shrinking. Half of the people on it, I never talk to anyway. I'm not even sure who half these people are anymore.
Consider my LJ profile... 36 people on the mutual friends section. 48 others have me friended. I don;'t even read half the entries on my friends page. I skim alot of them. Some people I have on there because I know there'd be issues if I took them off. Why that should stop me, I don;t know. Guess I'm afraid of hurting people's feelings or something like that.
I don;'t understand why everyone says I'm so nice....
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Don't worry about it all, Fran. Just do what you want to do and what you enjoy doing for now. There are a lot of high expectations in this world - you don't have to cater to what everyone else expects.
If you're not enjoying your course, then switch. Find something you're comfortable with. If you don't like what you're doing, what's the point in doing it at all, hm?
You ARE a nice person. You are honest, you have a sense of humour, and though you don't always understand what I mean, you're fun to talk to. I LIKE talking with you - there are only a few people I talk to online.
I know what it's like to feel like you're just being anti-social, and there's a damn lot of people who are the same. You only ever have a few friends, and then there's just your mates - that's how I (and most of my family, for that matter) view social problems.
And don't let the idiots get to you :3 If you like it, and it's within your capability to do it, then do it regardless of what logic dictates. To quote Mithos, "People are not moved by logic."
(No, that does not apply to shooting, impaling, disembowling or any other death-method towards any living being. You wanna do that, get yourself a surgical dummy.)
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Like I always say, when it stops being fun anymore, that's the time to stop doing it. And you can take away from this experience the knowledge that you made an amazingly huge crapload of people happy with all the media you've shared in your time running the site.
I know we don't talk much anymore, but if my name is still on your buddy list, I hope that won't prevent you from just saying hi if you ever feel like it.
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