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I'm debating hitting the reset button on YnG
Rae sugested it and at this point, it may be best. Unless we can roll with cast changes or something.. I don't know.
I just know I'm sick of running it.
Sick of having to be the one pushing it up hill.
Sick of being the only one who talks to anyone, who tries to make sure everything moving, who nudges people who need to post. Who listens to everyone bitch.
Finaly, I did some bitching back.
This is the only RP where running it makes me want to throw things. Maybe it's cause there's too many people, most of which don't comunicate. Maybe it's because we have a bloody headstrong player who tries to dictate all the bloody action and then complains that her character is running the show. Maybe it's because people are afraid to post becase they think they're going to run afoul of the preset order or plot. Maybe it's because I've been being an inbetween, or because I've had to ask people to change posts or because I'm expected to tell people what and when to post to apease another player.
It's a bloody RPG! It's not a novel! You roll with the changes and keep going! I think every character but maybe 2 or 3 have been replaced. Some as many as 4 times!
So what if your character didn't get to do something youwanted them to because someone else did it first? It's like complaining that you didn't get first pick of everything because someone got there before you.
It's like running a bloody preschool.
And I'm so tired of it...
So I snapped at a player.
I don't want to have to manage this anymore. All my other RPs, the most managing I have to do is 'Hey, I have an idea' or 'I posted. You wanna go next or shall we wait for so and so?'
I'm so damned exausted...
It's been a hellishly stressfilled and twichy month. I'm crashing down from a manic 5 day peroid. I'm on new meds yet again [thank GOD these are working like they should be. No more cramps, and my peroid FINALY stopped.]
Meh.
I need to appologize for lashing out so much and do the diplomatic thing now... *sighs* Reminds me of PF... only I didn't even get to say 'You're all fucking idoits' Probally cause it's not true, but 'Half of you are drama queens' doesn't have the same impact. :)
Meh, actualy, I correct, one Rp needs mild managment of a 'We're stuck. May I sugest' variety. Next post.
You know the sad thing? If I had a job, I'd be more relaxed. ^^
*sighs*
yeah, this devolved. Time to hit post.
Rae sugested it and at this point, it may be best. Unless we can roll with cast changes or something.. I don't know.
I just know I'm sick of running it.
Sick of having to be the one pushing it up hill.
Sick of being the only one who talks to anyone, who tries to make sure everything moving, who nudges people who need to post. Who listens to everyone bitch.
Finaly, I did some bitching back.
This is the only RP where running it makes me want to throw things. Maybe it's cause there's too many people, most of which don't comunicate. Maybe it's because we have a bloody headstrong player who tries to dictate all the bloody action and then complains that her character is running the show. Maybe it's because people are afraid to post becase they think they're going to run afoul of the preset order or plot. Maybe it's because I've been being an inbetween, or because I've had to ask people to change posts or because I'm expected to tell people what and when to post to apease another player.
It's a bloody RPG! It's not a novel! You roll with the changes and keep going! I think every character but maybe 2 or 3 have been replaced. Some as many as 4 times!
So what if your character didn't get to do something youwanted them to because someone else did it first? It's like complaining that you didn't get first pick of everything because someone got there before you.
It's like running a bloody preschool.
And I'm so tired of it...
So I snapped at a player.
I don't want to have to manage this anymore. All my other RPs, the most managing I have to do is 'Hey, I have an idea' or 'I posted. You wanna go next or shall we wait for so and so?'
I'm so damned exausted...
It's been a hellishly stressfilled and twichy month. I'm crashing down from a manic 5 day peroid. I'm on new meds yet again [thank GOD these are working like they should be. No more cramps, and my peroid FINALY stopped.]
Meh.
I need to appologize for lashing out so much and do the diplomatic thing now... *sighs* Reminds me of PF... only I didn't even get to say 'You're all fucking idoits' Probally cause it's not true, but 'Half of you are drama queens' doesn't have the same impact. :)
Meh, actualy, I correct, one Rp needs mild managment of a 'We're stuck. May I sugest' variety. Next post.
You know the sad thing? If I had a job, I'd be more relaxed. ^^
*sighs*
yeah, this devolved. Time to hit post.
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Am I in it?
Chibi Seto: *whacks Shardy* You baka! You haven't RPed anything in three months!
Oh, yeah. ^^;;
I know how that goes. This is why I'm not RPing again for a long time.
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I'll let you in on my experiences some time.
-That guy who lived with you for a few years