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So I'm gonna be trying this "be on the computer less" thing this week. Scaling back how much I check things. Disabled LJ tools then went "Wait, I liked that feature" and re-enabled it and just told it to stop checking my friends list and only check my stalk like like.. 2x a day.
Anxiety spike is easing off but still simmering. No longer afraid to check my inbox, which is good. Starting to chat with my friends again instead of hiding in a corner. All good signs!
Last performance today! At 2! If you're in the area, SHOW UP! :D
Saw Paula briefly at last nights, but she was all over the place as Paula often is. Still was nice to spot her.
I keep staying up til 2am @_@ Ya know, as it's getting closer to the end of summer where ha ha no, can't be doing that much longer. 6:30 wake up calls coming in two weeks! Oh god, I can't wait for that. Not the wake up call, but summer to be OVER. I need my routine back, I need my PAYCHECK back and goddamn I want to crunch me some numbers. Especially numbers that MEAN something and can be acted on. [and that get positive feedback. I don't think that many people care about my stats posts on C&C ^^;;; ] I have this LIST in my head forming of "and when I get in I need to do X, Y, Z..." Should check my work email. But I don't like checking it when I don't have work cause it'll be all things I can't do anything about and then I'm back to making grabby hands going "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
... god I sound like a workaholic. But I'm not, really. I just... really miss the structure and the paycheck and the people and the patterns I can build around it and the being productive and etc etc etc. Summer is like one Sunday after another and I NEVER get anything of value done on a Sunday. I am far more productive when I go out to work first. Sundays are sloth days. Work days I tend to be very "FUCK YEAH" when I get out.
... oh wow. I think I just realized. I AM HYPER. I HAVE BEEN HYPER FOR A FEW DAYS NOW. EVEN WITH THE ANXIETY SPIKE. FUCK YES IRON LEVELS WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *runs around in circles*
... now if I can just get my physical activity levels up too... phhht yeah right. But there are plans for the garden and the weather's been so niiiiice...
But call is at 1 and it's 10:30 now so pppphht.
... and besides. I wanna see if I can get this thing hatched on Pokefarm. *hides in shame cause lol, stupid game addiction*
Anxiety spike is easing off but still simmering. No longer afraid to check my inbox, which is good. Starting to chat with my friends again instead of hiding in a corner. All good signs!
Last performance today! At 2! If you're in the area, SHOW UP! :D
Saw Paula briefly at last nights, but she was all over the place as Paula often is. Still was nice to spot her.
I keep staying up til 2am @_@ Ya know, as it's getting closer to the end of summer where ha ha no, can't be doing that much longer. 6:30 wake up calls coming in two weeks! Oh god, I can't wait for that. Not the wake up call, but summer to be OVER. I need my routine back, I need my PAYCHECK back and goddamn I want to crunch me some numbers. Especially numbers that MEAN something and can be acted on. [and that get positive feedback. I don't think that many people care about my stats posts on C&C ^^;;; ] I have this LIST in my head forming of "and when I get in I need to do X, Y, Z..." Should check my work email. But I don't like checking it when I don't have work cause it'll be all things I can't do anything about and then I'm back to making grabby hands going "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
... god I sound like a workaholic. But I'm not, really. I just... really miss the structure and the paycheck and the people and the patterns I can build around it and the being productive and etc etc etc. Summer is like one Sunday after another and I NEVER get anything of value done on a Sunday. I am far more productive when I go out to work first. Sundays are sloth days. Work days I tend to be very "FUCK YEAH" when I get out.
... oh wow. I think I just realized. I AM HYPER. I HAVE BEEN HYPER FOR A FEW DAYS NOW. EVEN WITH THE ANXIETY SPIKE. FUCK YES IRON LEVELS WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *runs around in circles*
... now if I can just get my physical activity levels up too... phhht yeah right. But there are plans for the garden and the weather's been so niiiiice...
But call is at 1 and it's 10:30 now so pppphht.
... and besides. I wanna see if I can get this thing hatched on Pokefarm. *hides in shame cause lol, stupid game addiction*