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[frannyan]

Bleh...

This is like... the definition of the Fran-depression....

Full of ideas...

Full of plots planning, counless senerios played out in my mind, the chibi's acting out almost every possible varient I can conceive...

And I can't do anything about it.

Becuase it's for something I have to wait on.

For a week.

A

Whole

Week


And I feel like a selfish, possesive, jelous asshole right now.



Both of the minds I need are currently out of my reach...

On alseep

The other 'entertaining'

(As I more fully understand what Xella feels)

So what do I do?

play games.

Tetris games.

Games you cannot win... ever...

Sort of like life...

And my mp3 player is not helping.

{It's only 1:30... going to bed now would seem a waste...}

{Especialy since she's on...}

{But just out of reach....}


When did I become so dependant?

Why can't I write on my own?

When did the universe in my head start depending on that of another's?


Day 5? without meds.

Feels like many a day with.

Useless discs of pink and blue..


I want to write him possessed...

{Why does he never stay in the background?}

(Why do you feel the need to ask that? You already know the answer}

{Demo... kore ga... atashi ja nai... ka?}

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['Enjoy the silence.....']